Sunday, September 20, 2009

Heartbroken

It is with a heavy heart that I write this post.

Artie and I had received some information about a private adoption a few weeks ago. We were thrilled at the opportunity. We prayed and hoped, everything seemed to be falling into place. It was the perfect situation.

Today we received news that the mother will not be proceeding with the pregnancy.

It's not fair. It is not fair that the baby will never know life. It's not fair that someone has the opportunity to decide weather or not to be pregnant. It's not fair that we can not just "get" pregnant.

I would just like to be in her shoes for 1 day.
I tried not to get my hopes up...but I did. It is hard not too. These days I cling to hope...it is all I have.

So please pray for healing. Please pray for this mother as she has a difficult procedure to go through. Please pray that we see where God is leading us.

5 comments:

Audra said...

I'm really, really sorry. It is heartbreaking.

Rebecca said...

Love ya!!! God will make it all work for you when it is right, promise. Keep praying, I just know something else is in the works.

Amber Schmidt said...

I am so sorry... mostly for that perfect little babe. My heart breaks for you too... to get your hopes up and then this. Sigh....

I cannot even imagine what you must be feeling right now. Music has become my solace... if you haven't heard the new Kutless song that is going to be released at the end of September I would highly encourage you to go to youtube and listen to it. (Its not on itunes yet)... hopefully it will uplift you. Many hugs and prayers...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9nK0l8Gr1TQ

What Faith Can Do- Kutless
Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You do have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

dsanders said...

Honey,

I am so sorry that the adoption did not work out for you.

I will keep you and Artie in my prayers.

Love Mom

Membership Required said...

I came across your blog from It's almost naptime and was drawn to it. I hope you dont mind but I placed you on my blog roll (blogs I read) and I am now a follower of yours. There are two adoption stories on my blog. Bringing Home Michael and Finding Lydia Rene, I have been blessed to know both these moms from MOPS. I also have two blogs that deal with traveling down the trail of surrogacy. They are A Surrogate's Diary (I know the GS and have met the mom to be) and the other is when Two become Three. But the main thing that I want to share with you is this link. The girl in this story is one of my sorority sisters. The story is on page two of the four page pdf. I know I dont know you but I am going to be praying for you. I have always thought that adoption was something extra special that served God's will. I know you will be come a mommy. Your wait might be longer than the 40 weeks some of us deal with but when you hold that baby or babies in your arms. Your world will stop and be right. Than it will start again, much differently but most awesomely! God will bless you. Dont give up hope!
http://www.stelizabeths.org/upload/newsletters/SEC%20Newsletter%2007-09%20FINAL.pdf