Sunday, February 22, 2009


I wanted to share the journey that I believe God is leading me to. Artie and I have been trying to conceive for over a year. I realized a long time ago that it is all in His time and when it is right it will happen. Every night I say a prayer that (mostly reminds me) I fully trust him to give us a child when He is ready. But...
Recently I have also been praying an additional prayer.

I have felt for quite a while that I would like to adopt. I fully believe that God has laid that on my heart. I believe that is my purpose and what I am being directed to do. I (of course) have had a hard time accepting that...I would love more that anything to physically have children. Many of you who know me, know that I am a bit of a control freak. So as you can see, I often have a hard time letting go of my own agenda to let God take control.

I have been praying that God will help Artie come on board with the idea of adoption. He wants so badly to have HIS children, and I do to. I am just not sure it is in the cards for us. Artie would like for us to try some fertility options. I am just not sure I would like to put the money into it. If God is not giving us a child...there is a reason. The fertility options are quite expensive and not always guaranteed to produce a child. I would rather use that money to put towards an adoption. I am praying for clarity in this matter.

Please say a prayer that God will provide some guidance for myself and peace for my husband.

1 comment:

Stephanie said...

I'm definitely praying for you all. My grandparents had the same problem and adopted my mom when she was three months old. She was such a joy to their lives. Then, when my mom was about 4, they found out they were pregnant...then again 5 years later. So, God does work in mysterious ways. Maybe there is a baby out there like my mom that needs parents like you and Artie. Only God knows. Love you and praying for you both to listen to God and do His will!!