Adoption

I wanted to share the journey that I believe God is leading me to. Artie and I have been trying to conceive for over a year. I realized a long time ago that it is all in His time and when it is right it will happen. Every night I say a prayer that (mostly reminds me) I fully trust him to give us a child when He is ready. But...
Recently I have also been praying an additional prayer.

I have felt for quite a while that I would like to adopt. I fully believe that God has laid that on my heart. I believe that is my purpose and what I am being directed to do. I (of course) have had a hard time accepting that...I would love more that anything to physically have children. Many of you who know me, know that I am a bit of a control freak. So as you can see, I often have a hard time letting go of my own agenda to let God take control.

I have been praying that God will help Artie come on board with the idea of adoption. He wants so badly to have HIS children, and I do to. I am just not sure it is in the cards for us. Artie would like for us to try some fertility options. I am just not sure I would like to put the money into it. If God is not giving us a child...there is a reason. The fertility options are quite expensive and not always guaranteed to produce a child. I would rather use that money to put towards an adoption. I am praying for clarity in this matter.

Please say a prayer that God will provide some guidance for myself and peace for my husband.